I pulled the ball of mustard goldenrod out of my bag for square #12 and viewed it with distaste. The old yarn is downright ugly, but I needed to use it up. So, I crocheted a small circle and then surrounded it with a pretty pink and purple. Maybe, if I sandwich the ugly yarn with the pretty, no one will notice the cover-up...except me. I'll know it's there.
My grandpa said this morning, "The world only knows us by what we choose to show of ourselves." I have to admit I've got some ugly yarns in my life that I don't want others to see - we all do. Sometimes those yarns get exposed; other times we hide them for years behind a facade of superficially pretty colors. I've often felt a guilty embarrassment when others praise me or think I'm so good. Don't you know that I'm no better - that I struggle just like anybody else?
To quote Pride and Prejudice, "One has all the goodness and the other all the appearance of it." God has all the goodness, and I have just the appearance of it. I can't hide my ugly yarns from Him. The truly good news is that God uses our weaknesses to further His purposes. Our failings don't change His sovereignty or His love for us. What we call ugly, God calls beautiful; what we call weak, God makes strong; what we call worthless, God considers priceless.
So for square #13 I deliberately picked out clashing colors - neon purple, red, and multi-colored brown/green/blue. My artistic sensibilities cringed at the combination, but that square was going to be a necessary part of the final picture. And this is my prayer, "Lord, thank you for loving me despite my weaknesses. May they be used to glorify you."
2 Corinthians 12:9 "But he said to me, 'My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.' Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ's power may rest on me."
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